Baby Baby Baby Ouh...

hahahah..after kemurungan melanda..now i'm BACK! heee... no lah..i'm still the one who you alls know..no changes at all..hmm..
i just recall the situation when my ADIK tersenyum2 nak tahu sape panggil i BABY, kat FB n my msj..hahaha..sumpah kelakar..

for you all information..the one who call me such that way tu adalah my BFF..not BF k..tak ade minat pon nak couple lagi..HEH..okay! back to the real life..

after i lost my voice around a week..i went to APPLE K..kat megamall with Aza,Azri,Diya,Zai n Beatrice..
melalak bagai nak rak..weee...someone tell me my voice sedap..haha..whatever lah..huduh je dgar..huhu..
Azri sang lagu tercipta untukku..hoh..jatuh kejap jantung..it's just because lagu tu ade memori..so sentap jap..hahah..tuii..mengarut jek..

around 5-6 song i sental..kasi lenyek sampai hilang suara balik. heee..then nak balik teserempak ngan miss dilla n aja..i hug miss dilla n aja..huhuh..they are my teddy.. hehe :D

Pre-Convocation Day..

huh..was an exhausted day i tell you..but fun..get being annoyed by this red blouse girl..huh..annoyed! lantak kau lah.. i got a snoopy for my pre convocation from mama n ayah..yay..

wait!! i saw..eh Gegurl! hey bieberaholic..hehe..i just say hi to her..

betuah punye azri..ko bawak camera..aku jadi cameraman..mmg la gambar aku kurang..sakit..sakit..hahahah
anyway..i have meet azri's mummy n papa..hahah..sumpah happening family dia..now i understand what aza feels..hahah..tp sekejap je tu aza..lame2 ok lah..(:D)
adik azri sangat chomel..chantik..

get home on 7..tertido kat spv..after lunch MacD with the gurls..yummy...

i will miss them strongggg when we are falls apart..hmm..

I am SORRY

                                               (I AM SO SORRY..)
Goodness of friday..
i'm taking MC today because i have serious major illness..my voice missing..after get posted my last blog..i get wash up and dressed and heading to the hospital without logout my FB

after meeting the doctor..get the pills..yekk!! tak suke..get back home with Mama..when i look at my fb there was a IM chat from her..she's feels so awry..hmm..im sorry there..i'm not intend to make you feels that..

what have i wrote is..the thing bugging my head..heart and all..SORRY..

i knew he read my blog..and posted something at his wall..okie..if you uncomfortable with it..i'm sorry..i don't mention too..SORRY

so be happy..i pray for you..enjoy your life.. :)

Ending is a BEGINNING...

for the last two days my life was so miserable..i keep thinking..and thinking..why i get into this matter for a sake thousand time..i hate it..its about LIFE..i think that my life were suck thats why i always found break heart, sorrow, sober and all things that can shows that my life was not better like anyone else..hmm..

i can't blame all in my life..it just because allah fated that to it happen..if i could scream..i will scream..but i scream for what..for says that my life was suck..or "thanks for you who make my life like this"..astarghfirullahhalazim..i wont..i wont be mad at my ALLAH because everything ALLAH do for me..it has something good for me in the future.. i REDHO..

for the two days..i am so sorry to MAMA, AYAH,ADAM,AQID,FRIENDS,WORKMATE especially MIZAH..it just because..i think deeply of my miserable life..all of yours mood was effected too..i'm sorry..i don't know because of me..one office was miserable too..haiyoo..i don't expected it to happen..i'm sorry..i'm sorry..

i thanks to ALLAH..because now i'm know..i was not alone..i have all my friends..no matter they was my friend at workplace ke, college ke, kl ke,they always surrounded me when i in miserable mood..thankie you! love you alls.. :'D

its about one month and 3 weeks my relation with him was bloom as sakura..and suddenly there was an earthquake happen between us..so he made the decision to ends this relationship and go with other(s) girl..

honestly, i was shocked..i was sad..i was be dumb person that let herself to be dump..haih..

on the second day i gave long faces at the office..i have to meet the big boss of my department..chaittt..merebak virus muke ketat sampai management risau.. SORRY BOSS...then i got back from the office on 5.30..drive to teluk chempedak..and sit alone..i sang the song that i dedicated to him..tercipta untuk ku and HOW DO I LIVE..for the first time i didn't feels shy at all to let them all hear my voice..walaupun pitching lari sikit..hmm..so i get a call from diya..that meeting will be held at taj..so i drove my car..named BACKY..name that been given by him.. to taj..on that time..i crying like hell..hmm..thinking why..why..and why..

Azri made my day brighter.. he quite knows how to psycho me..not to the negative side..but middle heheh..

he ask me to think wisely, and i know when Azri said something in a kind serious mood..he saying the truth..and i know he care for me..like diya and aza..and all..all of them i knew they love me..i love you too my friends..love ya..

7 April 2011..

my mood back to basic..happy, cheer, get noty with my romeo..haha..but sometimes i will feel so sorrowful..when i'm alone..arghh..enough!..

on 8 pm i drove my car..accompany with mizah going to polo, im2 and spv to fetch the people that can brighten my day..so we all berbond at the place i sang alone tu..then suddenly mr AH MENG comes..Adik was "aaaa..comelnye..hehehe" dia oyk mu comey meng..guane..hahahah..

thanks to mr ah meng coz paid all the dinner for that night..actually i'm so shy enough..nanti saye belanje awak balik..jaga adik saye (mizah) elok2..jgan wat onar..t saye back hand awak..

we all ber bond like hell..haha..i almost to take away my shawl..and take away my cardigan,,just wearing the dress and show off my un-blond hair..but its curly..and shows off with the cigarettes..(its azri opinion) but my promise to ALLAH was strong like besi..hahaha..so i wont do it..thanks for the last night.. eventually you guys have research to do..have assignment to do..you guys make time to see me..to cheer me up..to comfort me..

haha..atika sikun said Azri was my SUPERBOY..haha.. kami begini sebab kami baik dari the first day we step our feet into the UCSA.. wink2..

AZRI NAK NAIK FORTE!!SUMPAH NAK.. 

I HATE..GOOD BYE..

on 22 Apr 2011..every laugh, and happy moment will be buried at Kuantan forever..all things that has been we all do and written at Shahputra, at Kuantan and at all our heart will be memories..sweet and bitter memories also will be remembered until forever..

they will sit for their final paper and get back home..to their hometown..please..i don't wanna hear the word."good bye" ..i'm not a strong person who can accept the missing.. just imagine..when u got a big gift..then one day the gift will be disappear in a sec .. i won't accept that..i'm not ready to say or to hear that mentally and physically..kalau dulu utk cuti sem..tak ape lah..coz i can said to myself that.."alahh..its okie..2 month lagi jumpa lahh.." dulu lah..and now!!! arghhh...

now to many issues in my head..DEGREE..WORK..arghh..i'm to nervous..am i capable or able to continue my studies to the higher stage..or am i are being fated to work first..arhhh..but my little heart says that..go fetch your DEGREE SCROLL..yeah!! i want to..but i'm so afraid if my CGPA's not reach at the point that the course want..adduii.. yup i know now is not the right time i should regret..i should think about this on the first sem earlier..and now..what i can do is..pray to Allah..ask him to make an easier way for me to get battle in the Degree field..hmm..(sorry if i have huge grammatical or anything error..hehehe..i'm not fluent in Eng.)

My dear take a broadcasting course..his first choice..he hopes to get that..i pray for him to get what he want..insyaallah syg..

now the 31 March 2011 are end..so cross finger friend..hopefully our degree application will be approved and we will get what we want....AMIN..INSYAALLAH..

if i in OM course..and him in MC course..ofcoz we are being separated into 2 campus or 2 diffrent countries..TAK NAK!!..sob..sob..  but..redho aje lah.. insyaallah..allah fated he and me will be together..insyaallah..it will happen..AMIN..

hmm..guys..bye for now..becoz now is 4 a.m and i not sleeping yet..and i must get up on 6 a.m..huhu..

see you alls later..

p/s: now my dear at labis..having some educational carnival at the dataran labis..and he is cameraman there..
cameraman..tak boleh lupe time kat ECM..sesi photo shoot dgn abg cameraman..hah..tangan kedada, mata keatas,,hahaha..i believe in you syg..do take care yourself there..eat well..sleep well..i'm waiting you here..miss you..