Ending is a BEGINNING...

for the last two days my life was so miserable..i keep thinking..and thinking..why i get into this matter for a sake thousand time..i hate it..its about LIFE..i think that my life were suck thats why i always found break heart, sorrow, sober and all things that can shows that my life was not better like anyone else..hmm..

i can't blame all in my life..it just because allah fated that to it happen..if i could scream..i will scream..but i scream for what..for says that my life was suck..or "thanks for you who make my life like this"..astarghfirullahhalazim..i wont..i wont be mad at my ALLAH because everything ALLAH do for me..it has something good for me in the future.. i REDHO..

for the two days..i am so sorry to MAMA, AYAH,ADAM,AQID,FRIENDS,WORKMATE especially MIZAH..it just because..i think deeply of my miserable life..all of yours mood was effected too..i'm sorry..i don't know because of me..one office was miserable too..haiyoo..i don't expected it to happen..i'm sorry..i'm sorry..

i thanks to ALLAH..because now i'm know..i was not alone..i have all my friends..no matter they was my friend at workplace ke, college ke, kl ke,they always surrounded me when i in miserable mood..thankie you! love you alls.. :'D

its about one month and 3 weeks my relation with him was bloom as sakura..and suddenly there was an earthquake happen between us..so he made the decision to ends this relationship and go with other(s) girl..

honestly, i was shocked..i was sad..i was be dumb person that let herself to be dump..haih..

on the second day i gave long faces at the office..i have to meet the big boss of my department..chaittt..merebak virus muke ketat sampai management risau.. SORRY BOSS...then i got back from the office on 5.30..drive to teluk chempedak..and sit alone..i sang the song that i dedicated to him..tercipta untuk ku and HOW DO I LIVE..for the first time i didn't feels shy at all to let them all hear my voice..walaupun pitching lari sikit..hmm..so i get a call from diya..that meeting will be held at taj..so i drove my car..named BACKY..name that been given by him.. to taj..on that time..i crying like hell..hmm..thinking why..why..and why..

Azri made my day brighter.. he quite knows how to psycho me..not to the negative side..but middle heheh..

he ask me to think wisely, and i know when Azri said something in a kind serious mood..he saying the truth..and i know he care for me..like diya and aza..and all..all of them i knew they love me..i love you too my friends..love ya..

7 April 2011..

my mood back to basic..happy, cheer, get noty with my romeo..haha..but sometimes i will feel so sorrowful..when i'm alone..arghh..enough!..

on 8 pm i drove my car..accompany with mizah going to polo, im2 and spv to fetch the people that can brighten my day..so we all berbond at the place i sang alone tu..then suddenly mr AH MENG comes..Adik was "aaaa..comelnye..hehehe" dia oyk mu comey meng..guane..hahahah..

thanks to mr ah meng coz paid all the dinner for that night..actually i'm so shy enough..nanti saye belanje awak balik..jaga adik saye (mizah) elok2..jgan wat onar..t saye back hand awak..

we all ber bond like hell..haha..i almost to take away my shawl..and take away my cardigan,,just wearing the dress and show off my un-blond hair..but its curly..and shows off with the cigarettes..(its azri opinion) but my promise to ALLAH was strong like besi..hahaha..so i wont do it..thanks for the last night.. eventually you guys have research to do..have assignment to do..you guys make time to see me..to cheer me up..to comfort me..

haha..atika sikun said Azri was my SUPERBOY..haha.. kami begini sebab kami baik dari the first day we step our feet into the UCSA.. wink2..

AZRI NAK NAIK FORTE!!SUMPAH NAK..